Over a decade ago, my life took a vibrant turn as I stepped into a new chapter in Switzerland, freshly married and filled with hope. Landing an admin role, I saw it as a mere stepping stone, awaiting a position that matched my skills and aspirations.

But then, a twist. Engaged in a task force that sparked my passion, I was on the cusp of a role more befitting, more me. Yet, the hope crumbled – the shift never came. Told I was needed in my current role, my dreams felt clipped. Yet, I clung to hope, believing another chance would arise.

And it did. Only to slip away once more, leaving me ensnared in a cycle of frustration and stagnation. Over 40, in a foreign land, the voice of reason urged me to cling to the 'secure job.' But deep down, I knew it was against my very essence.

After the second setback all I wanted was to quit. Yet my obligation to provide financial support for my family back in my home country prevented me from taking any action. Frustration and disappointment became my constant companions. But fear and uncertainty held me back. I was over 40, in a foreign country, doing the same job for over a decade. According to professional recruiters, I was rusted.

Calming myself down to embrace reason and keep that "secure job" appeared to be a sensible solution at the time.

Looking back now, I realize it was a big mistake. It would never work. I acted against my intuition, my feelings, and my convictions.

As the months passed, my emotional turmoil intensified. I distanced myself from family, friends, gave up hobbies. The joy that once fueled me vanished. The little energy I had left was completely drained by the job.

Then came the pandemic. Amidst the horrific chaos, I confronted the truth:

I needed a change, I wanted joy, passion, a life that felt fulfilled. A decision had to be made, and I knew it had to be fast.